End of the road, but hopped onto another..

Yea, today's my last day here in FBIC. I left sooner than expected when another much better offer came along.

3 person left at the same time, including myself, making it 5 this month. Yesterday, the whole company, of those whose present in the office yesterday, had farewell lunch together at Uncle Chilis, Amcorp Mall.

I initially planned to work here for at least 3 years but for the past 2 years, I've turned down numerous calls for interviews and declined many resume request from Jobstreets because I was eager to complete what I planned.

That was until one company requested my resume twice. Then the next thing I knew, I started attending interviews. This company that initially requested me didn't turn out well, maybe because my pay demand was too high for them, or they found me not suitable for their position on offer.

But doubled as a recruitment agency serving only business partners, my resume was also forwarded to their business partners, and T-SYS came into the picture. The interview went ok, but was surprised that they offer me a position that very same day.

One barrier was the pay they offered was too far off from my expected salary. True they're a very good company, so I've heard from many of my ex-colleagues currently in there. Also, their line of business wasn't something I'm really keen on.

Having slowly gaining my establishment on ERP, I'm not really willing to start over with their credit card systems. So I declined them, after spending some days thinking.

Not a while later, got a sudden e-mail from Western Digital for an interview. Surprised as I have not applied for any position with them, I went on with the interview nonetheless, and soon found out it was for the Dynamics AX position I applied with another company. Turns out, that company too is an agency.

Things turns out pretty well. I got an offer, and still successfully negotiated for an additional RM100. Maybe I should have tried at RM200 instead... hahaha.

In joining WD, I would have 2 concerns at the moment. Firstly, I'm just a contractor, meaning, I'm hired by the agency but outsourced to WD. So should anything happens, I'll most likely to be the first to go.

Secondly, the AX project will not begin so soon. Yet they need me eagerly for their HR project. Supposed AX failed to take off, I may need to rethink my options, something which I do not want to see happen, for at least so soon in a new company.

Oh well... will just need to wait and see. Haha...

I'm back!!!

Touch down KLIA at around 10.05pm last night after almost the whole day travelling. By the time I reached home, it was already past midnight.

Coming back, I took 3 plane rides... and it's one damn bloody tiring ride. Worse, I was at work today. Was feeling sleepy the whole day today.

Anyway, day by day details will be posted later.

New Year II

It's already 5 days into 2009. Things are pretty much the same thus far, the way it has been.

I've never made any resolution or wishes in the past, maybe because I was pretty much happy with the way things were.

But this year seems rather different. At least, the New Year itself gave me some indifferent feelings.

In my New Year post, I said:
"Good bye 2008.. you haven't been great, but you haven't been that bad either
Welcome 2009.. hopefully, things will be much better than before".

Yeah, 2008 hasn't really been a great year. The 2nd and 3rd quarter of 2008 has given me probably some of the best memories I've ever had thus far in life, but come the last quarter, all these took a nose-dive.

Basically, I was not a happy man. There were times I just wish I was somewhere else. Being at work sickens me, so I wished I could be out of the office. Staying at home annoys me, so I sometimes wished I'm out of the house... yet when I'm actually out of the house, the feeling of being lost haunts me.

And at times, I felt lonely...

I've also posted one of my thoughts that has been troubling for a while now. Maybe I've always been the more reliable one, the one who could bare responsibilities, ever since I was a child. But that has finally starting to show cracks in me.

If there's ever a resolution that I would make for this year, it is probably to be MORE irresponsible. That way, I could perhaps be a little more carefree and happy at work, at home, or at what ever that I've been doing.

Funny when I looked back into my past 25 years in life, I haven't really achieved great things that would or might make my life happier... not just easier... happier. Sure, there's been achievements in Wushu that I should really cherish. It have its wonderful moments but that have long past, in the history.

So now what? I just need to wait and see what 2009 brings for me.

It's back!!!

Yes!!! The American Gladiators is back... after god knows how many years away.

This TV program is about 2 men/women competing against each other through some very challenging obstacles while at the same time being challenged by a group of people known as the Gladiators.

Loved this show when I was a kid. And now it's back!!!

Oh yeah...

Purpose of Life

It really got me thinking for a while now, what's the purpose of my life?

Most of the time, I feel that I live my life for others more than for myself. Be it at home or at work... there's always work and responsibility that I have to carry while some people can actually enjoy themselves, doing things they want, without bothering what's going around them.

Lately

I've been feeling down and easily depressed lately...

Don't know why.

Happy Halloween

Yes, it's Halloween..

well, only got to know since Philippines is celebrating it today. Oh... how I wish I am still there... so I can get to experience my first Halloween party.

But sadly, it is not to be...

And I'm stuck now in the office rushing for my work... damn

First lesbians... now yoga??

First there was a ruling on lesbians... now ruling a yoga. Things are getting really hilarious.

Do read the news.

Last Day

Last day at customer site. Flying home tomorrow...

wuuhuu....

When gear 1 is gear 3

Damn it!

Despite driving for more than a year now, I could still make some silly mistakes that only happens to new drivers.

Left work... heavy rain.. heavy traffic... was trying to turn into a junction and it was by a slope. I released the gear while waiting for the traffic to clear.

And when I could finally cut into the junction, the car stalled... not once but twice. During the first time, I thought I released my clutch too fast (yea, the most common way to stall a car).

So I quickly ignite the car again to get it moving... and again it stalled... felted so bloody 'tulan'...

I released the gear only to realise I was actually on the 3rd gear instead of the 1st.

Damn...

Urgent!!!!

Damn it...

Yesterday, it was "super high priority"... and I was thinking, when was it that your boss gives you something to do which is never a priority.

I had to stay back in office until 10pm last night to complete fix an error.

Then this morning, it was "it's urgent.... super urgent.... damn urgent...."

("-_-)

Bloody programming...!!!

What the hell!!!

1234.56 + 4567.89 of type double gives you 5802.45000007

but

1234.56 + 4567.89 of type decimal gives you the accurate 5802.45

What the hell is happening??!!!

How can I be getting such results...
How can I return such calculation results to the users??!!!

Sure will kena tiu kaw kaw wan!!!

From now on cannot use double... must only use decimal.

Jam

Damn it, I just hate it when I'm stuck in the jam. It's bad when you're driving a manual. It's even worse when there's a jam for no apparent reason.

This morning on my way to work, the jam started to build up at the traffic light in front of the mosque in Section 14, leading all the way to the traffic light in front of the SSP primary school. Stuck there for almost 10 minutes... a long time considering that I don't have to face a jam at all every morning.

The jam continued after the traffic light for those who turned right into Jalan Utara, the road leading to Hussien Onn Hospital towards Asia Jaya LRT and Hilton Hotel. Not sure what caused the jam. Fortunately, I had to turn left, so I missed the jam after that.

This jam reminded me of the worst one I've ever experienced in my 2 years of driving. Yup, the one where the bloody police road blocked major roads and highways leading towards the parliment and caused a massive jam all around KL just for one person.

There was already a massive jam in Federal Highway that morning. I don't have to get into any highways. I just drive across. But I was still stucked because cars from Jalan Utara could not get into the highway, thus, blocking my way. Argh!!!

Politically motivated or not, stopping that one person 'conveniently' delayed million others from getting to work, airport, exams etc on time. Half of my colleagues were late that day while I barely made it. What wonderful job our authorities are doing to our country.

Damn it!!! Just hate the jams... well, no one would anyway :D

This morning

So it rained this morning. Nothing great, except that it's the type of rain I love most. The slow, gentle, soft breezing drizzle is the kind of rain that really makes you want to call in sick at work just to stay in your bed, wanting to sleep throughout your morning under the comfort of your bolster, pillow, mattress, etc.

Well, at least I get to walked in the rain this morning. That was fun. But still, I just wished that I could just stay out, staring at the rain and play with it. I sure missed those times.

Recalled this while typing.

Memory: The Song

Another song that wouldn't keep out of my mine.

Was already preparing to go home after work yesterday. The moment I stepped into my car and turned on the radio, this song began to play.

It's been a while since I last heard this song.

So the song:

Memory
By: Barbra Streisand

Midnight
Not a sound from the pavement
Has the moon lost her memory
She is smiling alone
In the lamplight
The withered leaves collect at my feet
And the wind begins to moan

Memory
All alone in the moonlight
I can dream of the old days
Life was beautiful then
I remember the time I knew what happiness was
Let the memory live again

Every street lamp seems to beat
A fatalistic warning
Someone mutters and the street lamp sputters
And soon it will be morning

Daylight
I must wait for the sunrise
I must think of a new life
And I mustn't give in
When the dawn comes
Tonight will be a memory too
And a new day will begin

Burnt out ends of smoky days
The stale cold smell of morning
A street lamp dies, another night is over
Another day is dawning

Touch me,
It's so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory
Of my days in the sun
If you touch me,
You'll understand what happiness is
Look, a new day has begun...

Somewhere Out There

Heard this song this morning over LiteFM (formerly: Light N Easy) while on my way to work today.

After that, this song just kept ringing into my brain... kinda missed the song and the movie. Having the song ringing in my mind is kinda refreshing and keeps my mind awake, especially when there isn't much to do at work and I'm falling asleep and leaving my office at 5.30pm is fast becoming a norm.

Anyway, the song...

Lyrics as performed byLinda Ronstadt and James Ingram
from the movie An American Tail (1987)


Somewhere Out There
written by James Horner, Barry Mann, Cynthia Weil

Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight
Someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight

Somewhere out there someone's saying a prayer
That we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there

And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star

And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star

And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true


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The 3rd in 2 years

Last Friday (June 27, 2008) was the last I would ever hear from a cousin brother of mine, who passed away of cancer around noon that day in Melbourne, leaving a wife and 4 children. They're all Australians.

His demise makes him the 3rd in 2 years among my family members.

The first was my aunt (his mother, my father's eldest sister) in January 2007, who died of old age. She had a lot of sickness and was in and out of the hospital during her last few months, so her demise was expected and IMHO, it did her some good. She was 78. It was during that time that my cousin was just diagnosed of cancer.

Then, barely 9 months later, it was my father's turn. It was a total shock, totally unexpected. He was never sick, never had any major illness. He died on the night of September 16, 2007 at 68.

Now, 9 months after my father's death, it was finally my cousin's time to go, losing more than a year's battle against his illness. I'm not sure of his age, but I think he's in his 50s, maybe reaching 60.

So farewell my brother, send my regards to your parents. Say hi to my father for me if you see him. May you rest in peace and god bless your soul.

Fuel hike effects

Last night was the first time I pump my fuel, 2 weeks after the new rate took effect.

At the old rate of RM 1.92/liter, I could cover 170-180 km for every RM 30 of petrol, now it roughly covers only 130 km with the new rate of RM 2.70/liter... so how great is the effect on me anyway?

40 km is almost a week's drive to work, so the impact is kind of great.

I used to spend around 17-18 cents/km. Now, it worked out to around 23-24 cents/km.

The current price hike is inevitable, but with my current lifestyle, I guess I cushion it comfortably. Thank god for that. Amitabha...

Personal Milestone

After months of procrastinating, I've finally completed the full settlement for my car loan yesterday, 26 months early. Having completed the payments last week, I was at JPJ yesterday for the final procedure. But despite settling it 2 years earlier, I barely saved a year's amount in interest fees.

Still, I was glad when I saw the word, "DIBATALKAN" stamped on my car grant. So the car's rightfully mine, and mine only.

My precious sleep

Haven't had a good night sleep this week. All because every night, I've been having dreams, all of which vanished the moment I wake up.

I could not remember a single thing I dreamt about the night before.

But for every morning this week I woke up feeling even more tired and lacking sleep. Argh!!! I need my precious sleep.

How I wish this would stop. And how?